New day but old me!

 Hello,

This is a new day but i don't know if I have something new to do that excites me or makes me happy about it anymore as I am trying to figure out how to manage things on my own it still leaves me a lot of confusing thoughts that if I'm doing this right or should just give up. But as I'm striving towards the life that i want to build for myself I should be happy, right? But for some reason I don't feel happy anymore I'm just going with the flow and keep completing the task as if I'm in a video game who has been assigned to complete the task and they will get rewards but in my case I don't get any rewards in return which quite frustrating because people always say that you should work hard but the result will be fruitious but I'm not sure if that saying is applicable on my life or not. Right now life is a rat race and I don't to participate in this rat race I want my life to be peaceful and stable but I don't know why nothing is working out for me and people say manifestation do come true. Has manifestation came true for you guys? because for me it has never happened and i doubt it ever will be and one of my friends is a manifestation guru and she keeps telling me that I should believe in god and should manifest things and it will come true and I do believe in god but it seems like god is not in a mood to help me at this point and he has left me on my own. I have always been on my own never asked for any help from anyone besides my mother she is my lucky charm. I used to say that what will I do without you mother and I think that quote coming to reality because I am unable to do anything without her. She has always been my strength, my support, she always encouraged me to try out new things and pushed me forward to make new friends, to socialize with others and now that she is far away from me I feel like I am stuck in the middle of nowhere and there are no direction signs that in which direction should I move forward to. I guess that's all for today and I'll see you next time.

Enjoy your weekend everyone, bye for now :)

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